I'm checkedout. Thats my name and my state of mind sometimes! I was physically and sexually abused by my father when I was a young child. I bear similar wounds to everyone else here. I've tried promiscuity, alcohol, and denial to deal with the abuse. None of those worked and they just created more problems to deal with. I'm ready to talk now and I'm looking for someone to talk with. No holds barred, honest talking.
hi, i too was sexually abused by my father as a child. it happened from around the age of 8 or 9 to 15. i hid my shame from everyone till i told my mom about 2 months ago. my dad is terminally ill with cancer and i now am second guessing telling my mom. she already has so much to deal with. my dad also has the early stages of dementia and now even though it has not been said i feel i am being judged for bringing this out now when he is so ill. when it started i tried to tell my older sister ( dads favorite ) but she refused to believe me so i kept my secret hidden. i never told my mom cause if my own sister didnt believe me why would the woman married to him. i now know that she would have left him if she knew. i confronted my dad recently and in one breath said it never happened then in the next said " well she crawled into my bed" there is no proof but we think he also abused my younger sister too. his brother also molested myself and my older sister around the same time he was abusing me. i feel such shame and have attempted suicide 2 times. i am depressed and cant maintain a relationship. there has been 2 rapes and lots of physical abuse in my life as well. i really hope we can be friends. it would be nice to have someone who understands to talk to.
