hi i need help and i need friends one's that i can talk to. none of my friends really understand me. i'm finding it so hard at the moment. i'm a 25 year old woman who was abuse by my step dad for several years now over 10 years later i'm still suffering at the hands of what he did to me. i started to get help with my past last year and some of it did really work. but now that it is over i feel as though i have reached a crossroad and i don't know what to do. i have a wonderful husband and two beautiful children who with out them i simply wouldn't be here. i have loads of things i would like to pursue but i just don't have the energy or the confidance to do the thngs i want to i would really enjoy the conversation of anybody just to know i'm not alone
Hello there! I read your message and i have a similar story. I was sexually, physically and menatlly abused from age 5 to age 14. I am 34 now and it is still very much a struggle. I have tried couseling back around 18 and havent since. Tried to self medicate and do all the things that make since to do when you feel helpless. Needless to say, nothing has really helped. Also, there are so many things that if i had the self confidence it wouldnt be a problem to pursue but that lack of confidence thats almost always there. I would like to hear more about the things you have felt and the struggles u have had. Please dont hesitate to send message.
I rencently spend time with a shaman. This has been very useful. I also used a solicitor to take my abuser to court. He has not settled out to court. I didn't know how guilty I thought I was until he paid. Hope this helps a little
My father masturbated in front of me from the age of 12 until I was 24. It disturbed me when it was going on, and I did want to tell what was going on, but I was scared for my mum, because she's always been scared of him. I used to think what he was doing was wrong, but when I looked for information on sexual abuse what was happening to me didn't seem to comply with what was mentioned in the leaflets and I then had this horrible thought that I was somehow making him do this to me, and I felt disgusted with myself. I no longer live at home (that word 'home' does not feel good to me). I'm on my own, yet I still have nightmares and horrible flashbacks. I told my mum awhile back, but she laughed and I felt betrayed. I told her recently again that what I went through was sexual abuse and she shook her head. I get so angry at times and stoop to an all time low and just lie around in bed all day. It's this feeling of extreme loneliness.
hi there ive just read your message im 26 and i was abused from the age of 6 till i was 16 by my grandfather and my grandmother stood by him and watched i have a partner that i have been with for 10yrs next yr and 3 kids twins that are 3 and a 1yr old all girls if it was not for my partner i would of finished it a long time ago and now ive got my little girls how i protect so much. The bastard that abused me also abused my step sister and who nows who else. I would really like to talk to you please reply. wild child
hiya, ur story just completly echoes mine. i was abused by my step father as a child. cant remember wen it started but i remember certain flashbacks and my last one was wen i was at least 17 or 18. i kept it secret for years and just blocked it out along with my childhood, i cant remember anythin from wen i was little. i had my daughter 2 yrs ago and througout my pregnancy id convinced myself i was havin a boy and i think that was because i though it would be so much easier if it was a boy. wen she was born i was in complete shock at her bein a girl. but it was good because it forced me to deal with the situation and to finally come out about what happened. i couldnt cope with it any longer. it was hard for me because i was due to get married a yr after my daughter was born and i didnt feel that i should have my weddin day ruined by my family not bein there etc so i struggled on. my weddin day was gud, but it wasnt as special and amazin as i thought it would be. i had to have my stepfather walk me down the aisle, and i hated it. i wanted my mum to do it. if i had said no then questions would have been asked and i wasnt ready to deal with it. i finally came out and told my mum last sept by a letter. she believed me thank god. i just couldnt risk lettin my daughter go thru wot i did and i knew there was a chance i could lose everythin and every1 who meant anythin to me. my mum left my dad. my dad hasnt even tried denyin it. ive lost all my dads family which was reali hard. my brother has stood by my dad aswell, so its just me and mum reali. my mum felt alot of guilt, but is now doin good. i feel as if im still in the same situation because its nearly a yr on and im still on the list for counsellin. havent been able to see anyone as yet so i dont feel as if i can try to move on until ive re-visited my past. get good days and bad days and i hate that he still has a hold over me. i just want my life back. ive just had to push it to the back of my head and try and get on with my life until i can get into counsellin. my husbands been great, but im reali startin to dislike havin sex with him. i no its because of my past, but he just reali doesnt understand. we havent had sex for bout 6-8wks and i no hes very frustrated with me. but i just cant do nethin, the last time, i just felt uchey and uncomfortable. neway, thats my story. would be gr8 to hear from someone whos goin thru the same as me. got no1 to talk to, no1 understands wot im goin thru. i h8 this feelin of bein alone.
