hi, im 19 and was sexually abused by my father between the ages of 4 and 12. iv recently put him in jail for 5yrs but finding it so hard to cope as my family and friends only recently found out.i get terrible flashbacks and panic attacks.iv tried to commit suicide and have been self harming for a year now.i cant seem to find anyone who understands what im going through.i find it so so so hard to cope.if theres anyone on here that can let me know im not alone...
What can you do.... Just try to create an enviorment where you can recover.. write.. and find something that can take your mind off of it if only it is 5 minutes. 5 minutes is like forever. If you can obtain that. That few minutes of relief will become like a drug. You will seek it and seek it until you obtain more and more time. You will never completely get rid of it.. but when there is relief there is life lived and new history that is healthy.. Any healthy growth is in the right direction... don't worry about the bad.. it will always be there. Just worry there is something sometimes relief,, no matter how small.. In this way you will have something in your life to love ... look forward to and thus.. want to live.
Get rid of the idea..... you want to completely fix it.. it won't happen.. accept the fact you were in a train wreck and you will never be the same or what you could of been. Once you get over that.. there is life.... so smile..take comfort...pamper yourself and know... there will be better times.
