hi my name is michael im 28yrs old i have been married for 2 months and have 2 children and one on the way. i was mentally and physically abused from a very early age by my father grandfather and stepfather i was sent to a bording school at the age of 12 because i was emotionally disturbed within three months i was raped and spent the rest of my school days being sexually abused by older boys at school . my wife knows about my past but i cannot really talk to her about it as i feel it takes somebody who has been sexually abused themselves to really understand.
i thought that i could cope with not telling anyone about what had happened but cannot , i feel that i do not know what love love is and i tried to explain this to my wife who took it the wrong way , i cannot express love and blame this on my past i cannot afford specialist help but also feel that i shouldnt have to pay for somthing that wasnt my fault as i did nothing wrong, my wife asked me how i felt about the people that did this to me and all the people in my life , to be totally honest i feel nothing i feel empty of feelings all feelings , but hope to sort this out i know its going to take time and it needs to come out for my sake and my families
please feel free to chat and if there is anything i can help you with i will try my best to
