just saying hi. Ive never done this before so thought would give it a go.
Im 31 years old and have was abused by a baby sitter/family friend since as far back as i can remeber until i was 16 years old. I told my grandad and then he started to abuse me to. Im pretty messed up and i hate myself. I regularly self harm. Ive never talked about my abuse and would like to chat with someone who doesnt no me.
Dont worry about feeling funny bout posting. I think everyone of us whether we are a new member or an old hand at this is nervous when they post.
I hope you find solace here and some kind of healing if thats what you are loking for.
I remember when my secret was still a secret, I kept mine a secret for 20 years, and eventually let it go after I had taken an overdose. So I can understand your silence, especially when you took your grandad into your confidence and he also betrayed you.
Can I suggest Suzy that you go onto the forum on HAVACO's main web site. There are many more people there that are exactly the same as you and would be willing to help. This is a new site and its taking a bit of time to get going I think.
you should have been able to trust the person you told and not be abused by him to i know its hard to trust now and tell people but the longer it stays in the worse it gets non of this is your fault its the abusers fault.
you have to stop hating yourself yes i know its hard and please try not to self harm again if you feel like doing it then come on line and put a post up it may help to tell people how you are feeling so you get it out of you in a safe way
