Hello, just introducing myself, I am a 52 year old woman, with two daughters and two grandchildren. I make a living by helping to run three very small businesses.
I was abused psychologicaly, emotionaly and physically for most of my childhood. I was raped when I was ten by the father of two of my half siblings. It has been a slow dawning over many years as to the enormity of my experiences. This also showed me why I did some of the most crazy things when I was younger.
A lot of the time I am unable to address the issues because life has a tendency to take over. (one of my daughter's has several long term conditions, and will always have to come first). I come from a fairly large family, and am the eldest. I am now estranged from all but one member of my family. These estrangements were for all sorts of reasons.
One of my main problems is that whenever there is a crisis, I find that all the unresolved issues from the past come back to haunt me when I can least deal with them, so once again they are shoved back into their little cave for later retrieval (maybe). I do and have done for many years kept a journal, maybe this is why I have "coped" with very little professional help for all these years
Would love to converse via the private messaging with any one! I like writing, and indeed that is how I met my life partner, we started writing to each other and by the time a month had gone by we were writing several times a day!, we have now been together for almost twelve years! Sadly he is not the biological father of my children!
This is just to say a big SORRY to every one who wrote to me. I thought that I would have enough time to start some conversations with others. Since posting the previous post life has changed, trying to come to terms with schedules imposed by others is very hard. Today tried to change a hospital appointment that I need to take my daughter to (she may be grown up but she is totally dependent on me getting her from A to B and back again), I have never been so interrogated? there is no thought about how one is supposed to keep ones life together, just that if the hospital gives you an appointment you want to be grateful. I am so frustrated - how are we supposed to survive in this most uncaring world?
to every one who wrote to me. I thought that I would have enough time to start some conversations with others. Since posting the previous post life has changed, trying to come to terms with schedules imposed by others is very hard. Today tried to change a hospital appointment that I need to take my daughter to (she may be grown up but she is totally dependent on me getting her from A to B and back again), I have never been so interrogated? there is no thought about how one is supposed to keep ones life together, just that if the hospital gives you an appointment you want to be grateful. I am so frustrated - how are we supposed to survive in this most uncaring world? 
