Hello to all here on the forun.  I actually got the link from a survivor from another survivors group that I am in.  My story is long and confusing.  I have posted my story on a webpage on a abuse support website, if you care to take the time to read my story, here is the link  http://missy.healthyplace2.com/  just keep in mind that if you're not in a healthy state, please don't read it as it contains graphic details.

I have made a few friends on the other support group that I am a memeber of, but my problem is there are so many people there with problems bigger than mine and I almost feel like my petty problems don't belong there when so many have bigger and worse problems than mine.

I am currently engaged to a survivor of sexual abuse.  The problems we face on a day to day basis is sometimes overwhelming.  As he often has dreams that are very disturbing to him and he doesn't know how to deal with them.  And I have been to numerous couselers and have pretty much learn to deal with my abuse, but it becomes very difficult to help him deal with his issues all the time.

I guess the most difficult problem I face at this point in healing is that my mother has told my daughters that I lied and I made up everything, and they think I am just untruthful and looking for pitty.  That hurts more than words could ever say.  That makes me just want to disappear from my whole family and never return.  It makes me feel betrayed by the ones that I love the most.  But, I keep thinking that some day they can see the truth and look at the files in the courts and see for themselves that I didn't lie.  I don't know.

I'm sorry for just rambling.  Thanks for allowing me into this forum where I may be able to make some friends that more understand my situation.

Missy