I'm Annemarie brand new on here today, finding my way around and trying to make a good impression while i'm having a good day( not too many of them at the moment) All the message on here are great really helps to know that there is someone who knows what you are going through, I get sick of hearing the same all things
Just forget about it.
you are not still going on about that are you ?
Why can't we have sex, I'm nothing like him
I know what you mean, ( when in fact all they know is what they have seen on the TV)
How much more money are we going to spend on your therapy?
Does any body else get sick of hearing them phases over and over again.Who knows how long it will take, I live in hope that i can sleep one night through without the nightmares. One day with out flash backs. I'm not asking to much i hope.
It is nice to meet you.I am 38,married with 2 sons and live in Indiana.I was abused by my alcoholic step-dad and also my older(10 yrs older) half-brother.I ran away from home after realizing that my mother(who ran around with many different men) was not interested in stopping the abuse.My little sister and I ended up in foster homes(seperately)and that pretty much was the end of my family.My other brother(Terry) and my 2 sisters and I tried our best to bond together later in life...but somehow we just drifted further apart.Unfortunately,Terry died of a drug over dose 12 yrs ago...so, here I am trying my best to go on.I do alright much of the time but it`s the loneliness that really gets to me.My husband and I do not spend much time together(although we live in the same house) because my faith(among other things) has divided us....so really all I have is my boys and of course my Saviour.I am a Netzari Jew(a Jew who worships Messiah)but I was not raised in the faith or any faith for that matter.I have Jewish blood through my mom but she does not live as a Jew.I have tried to have a relationship with her, but it just seems hopeless to keep trying( she refuses to admit to the abuse).My step-dad just passed away last November...I am glad that he is finally gone from this world....not so long ago I heard that he raped a retarded girl, but he was never punished.I have complete faith that he will be punished now.
Any time that you need someone to talk to...send me an e-mail or post me here...I would love to make a new friend(s) who has been through much of the same things that I have....someone I can trust who can trust me also.Take care and I hope you are well!!
