I was molested by my stepfather as a young child. My own mother didn't believe me. I can remember the terrible things he did to me. I wet my pants up until the 3rd grade and was picked on. I thought I could get through it on my own once I got a little older, I moved in with my father and stepmom. At the age of ten my stepmoms grandfather locked me in the shed and sexually abused me as well. I was too small and already too mentally frgaile to even fight back. I've felt guilty my whole life, I must've done something to have made this happen. Im at the point in my life that I want sympathy , I want some sort of recognition, because my family brushed it under the rug. In my teen years, I got into drugs, alcohol, and sel-destruction trying to fight the inner demons; Failed attempt. I married at 18 to a man who is wonderful , but we've also had some ups and downs because of the abuse from my past. At times , I'm untrusting, or over-reactive, and sometimes even wreckless. If I don't find some sort of resolve I'm going to be m own worst enemy. My husband loves me and wants to do whatever he can to help, he just doesn't know what else to do but listen. Therapists are out of the question, I've tried and they are too cold, and uncaring.. Any advice???