After years of pain I finally find what i was looking for,people like me who have been sexually abused ac child.
I find it difficult to talk about it,i cant even remember how old i was. I have flashbacks and it gets worst with the time.
I t was my brother who abused me,he is 6 years older than me and as a teen-ager i think he wanted to experiment sex,that's the only explanation i give to myself. Sometime i understand him too but deeply inside i dislike him very much. I have never built a relationship with him,i don't talk to him and my parents nowdays still ask me why we do not get on!
I never told them everything,never told anything to the psychologist at the age of 15 when i was so nervous that i started to bite the wood of the chair in the living room.
My personality nowdays is so complicated,strange, i see myself different.
Please,if anyone can help me or address me to a counsellor do so,i am getting to the point of breaking down!
Hi Alex, My name is deirdre im know as Dee-Dee as a nick name, im a new member just there now i was looking for help, guideance also but im willing to help others who are also in the same situation. Was reading your message, Alex I was sexually abuse by my uncle from when i was 10-20, I never thought I would ever be able to live a normal life again, but im gradually getting my life together through couselling, faith, and telling your mind positive thoughts, personnelly i think it would better for you to talk to a professional first before you tell anymore to your family, prepare your mind,emotions and your life its all about yourself write get right with inner self, if you need someone to talk to just send me a message anytime i will reply you will survive Alex... hear from you soon Dee-Dee