I am 44 and was sexually abused by my brother, from the age of 6. It continued for many years.
I have now reached a point in my life where I no longer want the memories to control my future, so I have begun counselling. It is a lot harder than I ever believed it would be and, as a result of facing the memories, instead of running from them, I have begun to self-harm again. This is how I used to "cope" with my situation!
It has, however, made me question whether I should continue counselling or not. My counsellor is fantastic though and I have been able to tell her about the self-harm.
I sometimes wonder whether I can truly shake off the memories and move my life forward. I guess that only time will tell. I do know, however, that I need to try - for me and for my children.
i think its a great thing that you are seeing a counceller and shelf harm is a way of dealing with the pain its better in my opion that you start getting things out in the open with your counceller you could see your doctor and see if there is any self harm groups you can join to activaly help you to stop